May 30th, 2011
Sometimes when I sit down and look at my computer screen, I have this overwhelming sense of “wordlessness.”
Today is one of those days.
I’m sitting in my classroom today, void of students but full of boxes, feeling a little emtional.
So much has happened this year in this room.
Happy moments, like the day when Mica decided to help teach a math lesson instead of lean her head against the board and say once again, ‘I want to quit learning.’
Laughing moments, like the day when I almost fell out of my chair because it lost balance.
Sad moments, like the day when one of my students had learned that his dad had left home and they didn’t know where he had gone.
Scary moments, like the day when a student got choked on a lifesaver and I was pretty sure that I wasn’t equipped emotionally for that kind of situation.
Exhausting moments, like the days when the students just didn’t want to open another book and read another lesson but I knew we had to press on in order to reach our goals.
Yes, this room may be void of students today but it is still filled with memories.
Isn’t life like this?
We lose people and time periods in our life that are irreplacable but NOONE can take away the memories.
Memories are a gift.
I think that is what Memorial Day is all about.
The gift of remembering those who have fought for our freedom in America and those who have gone Home before us.
Praying that today you find sweet memories in the midst of your feelings of loss.
Thankful that somehow God filled my blank screen with these words in spite of me.
Remembering His sacrifice in a powerful way and whispering, “Thank you, Jesus.”
May 27th, 2011
Even if frightening things surround you, you are safe with God.
Even if scary things are happening in the world, God is still in control.
Even if things that don’t make sense, trust Him.
Even if you feel that you are in over your head, God will hold you safely above water.
Even if your body feels weary, God will strengthen your soul.
Even if this world has brought sorrow, God promises eternal joy.
Truly my soul finds rest in God;
my salvation comes from him.
Truly he is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
Thankful today for these promises,
May 26th, 2011
May 24th, 2011
If you think about it, life is a series of goodbyes.
I arrived at school this morning to find one of my teacher friends crying.
She had placed her daughter on the school bus to elementary school for the last time, saying goodbye to those “early, innocent years” and realizing deeply that middle school looms in her daughter’s near future.
Students popped in and out of my room all morning saying “goodbye,” and I know today will be filled with all kinds of special moments……………..
Goodbyes are emotional even if they are not forever goodbyes.
“The only thing in life that doesn’t change is the fact that life is full of change,”
I smile because I know this:
THERE IS SOMEONE WHO NEVER CHANGES!
He is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
He is as constant as a capital letter in any math formula.
His love is as sure as the sunrise and the sunset.
When Jesus left this earth and ascended into Heaven, He promised to send the Holy Spirit who would be with us ALWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God placed us in a world that constantly changes and is full of many goodbyes, but He promised us a constant Companion and an eternal Home with NO MORE GOODBYES.
With every goodbye today, I am thankful for a time when goodbyes will be a foggy memory, because the changes of this world will become the steadfast promises fulfilled in Heaven.
May 23rd, 2011
May 20th, 2011
I’m reading a book right now called Second Calling: Finding Passion and Purpose for the Rest of Your Life by Dale Hanson Bourke.
Maybe the fact that I’ve said for years that I still don’t know what I want to be when I “grow up” has caused me to stop and ponder my life direction.
Maybe it’s the fact that I’m in that mid-life stage of life that drew me to this title when I was walking through a bookstore one day.
Maybe it’s the reality that I long to feel a fire deep within me when I wake up in the morning and head out the door to face whatever God is calling me to do on any particular day.
I want that.
I need that.
The rest of my life.
That’s all I have left.
So turning each page of this book ignites something in me…………………..
As if two pieces of wood are being rubbed together and sparks are beginning to fly.
I’m excited about the thought of a second calling.
I’m not sure what that looks like, but I am ready to be revived!
If you find yourself sitting at a crossroads in your life journey, consider reading Second Calling.
May 19th, 2011
This past weekend our son Evan graduated from Morehead State University. Relatives came to town and shared the special day with us!
On Friday night we went out to eat, and I was sitting next to my nephew Phillip. For some silly reason I began pretending that I was a little girl named Lydia and Phillip jumped right into the act. It was so funny. All weekend he kept asking when Lydia was going to come back to visit.
“Lydia” showed up to swing in the backyard for a bit with Phillip after we got home from eating, and during our imaginary conversation, Phillip said something that cracked me up.
He was talking about his Aunt Tammy (me) and said, “Sometimes she is cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs and off the charts.”
We all thought this was such a funny phrase for a kid to say.
If you want to get an honest opinion of yourself, I guess asking a 7 year old is that way to do it.
After Phillip left this weekend, I didn’t really think about what he had said too much until I was reading my devotion this morning in my book “Jesus Calling.”
I had to call my sister-in-law (Phillip’s mom) as soon as I read what it said.
Here is what I read:
I want you to know how safe and secure you are in My Presence. That is a fact, totally independent of your feelings. You are on your way to heaven, nothing can prevent you from reaching that destination.
There you will see Me fact to Face, and your Joy will be “OFF THE CHARTS by any earthly standards.
Goosebumps covered my arms as I thought to myself, “God placed simple, funny words in Phillip’s mouth so that I would read my devotion this morning and say WOW, WOW, WOW!!!”
Off the charts!
I think that is how God calls us to live out our lives.
Jesus came to give us an abundant life.
Off the charts!
Jesus is coming back one day to take us all to Heaven!
I can’t think of a better reason to live an “off the charts” life, can you?!?!
I Corinthians 13:12
For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror;
then we shall see face to face.
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully,
even as I am fully known.
May 18th, 2011
I’m not so crazy about those times.
I remembered how Bridgett had told me that she had looked at her boys when we lost Nick and couldn’t imagine losing one of hers. Now here I stood looking at her boys and finding myself not able to imagine my kids not having me.
There’s something about this picture that reminds me that even in the seesaw-reality of life, the constant ups and downs, the juggling of work, home, church, and on and on, there can be peace.
I’m searching for it today, and I am not going to stop until I find it.
It’s more important than a hole in a sweatshirt or an overly cluttered shed.
May 17th, 2011
you too can find Hope and Peace.
May 16th, 2011