Following My Heart…using His Words

she speaks

Well, Friday morning I am going to pull out of Grayson, KY, all by myself at 6 a.m. and head to Charlotte, North Carolina, for a weekend conference called She Speaks.

I’m going to be honest.

I’m nervous.

I feel unqualified in many ways to think I have anything to share that could make a difference on this planet, and yet I feel such a burden to redeem the losses in my life and give some sort of glory back to God who has carried me through every day of this difficult journey.

On Friday evening I will be sharing “my story” in a three-minute critique group.THREE MINUTES!  Pray that I can condense my journey into something that makes sense and yet shows the power of a God whose faithfulness and love exceed all of my pain.

On Saturday evening I will share a five-minute talk on a Scripture. Marybeth Whelan will be evaluating me.  I’m going to confess that this talk is still buried deep within me and has not yet come out on paper…pray that I can pull it out and communicate it in a way that makes sense.

I am at a point in my life where I am trying to seek God’s will for me…

Is it to return to the classroom as a middle school teacher (I’m just going to sub this year while I wait for a clearer answer.) 

Is it to write?

Is it to speak?

I just don’t know. 

I do know this:

I am just a regular woman, an everyday wife, a struggling mom, a faithful friend (I hope), a sometimes moody daughter, a wanting-to-be better sister and aunt, a terribly lacking daughter-in-law (I’m so sorry I’ve been so distant), and the list goes on and on.

But I also know that I am part of the glorious Bride of Christ, I am the mother of four amazing kids and two precious angels, I am blessed to share life with great friends, I owe so much to my mom and dad, I adore my sister and brother and nephews, I am thankful for the parents of my husband…you raised him to be such a great man of God..thank you, and most of all I am a daughter of the King!!!!

I will share about my weekend as soon as I get home.

I’m looking forward to rooming with Melodie, my precious sister in Christ who lost her beautiful Brittany to a brain tumor two years ago.  I am looking forward to meeting another Tammy whose son Brian went home to be with the Lord last summer after being in a car accident.

I know that spending time with these women and so many more will be the biggest blessing of my weekend!  I’m sure we will share many tears and hopefully some laughter too. 

I am praying that God will give me peace and that He will speak to me in very clear ways as I sit in the workshops and as I stand in front of my critique group.

My heart is open to God’s leading.

My Words are from Him and Him alone.

So I will enter this She Speaks weekend just as I do my blog..with…

My Heart His Words,

4 thoughts on “Following My Heart…using His Words

  1. I read some of your blog, and I am definitely looking forward to meeting you! We have an amazing weekend in store for us!! And I’m nervous too!

  2. I happened onto your blog about a month ago. It is a place I love to be because of your faith and love of our Lord. I know in my heart that it is HE who is helping you walk this long and difficult journey. Just think where you might be without HIM. You are gifted with words so wherever HE leads you, I know you will be in the right place. Take your time since you have been through a lot. The rock was such a wonderful gift for you. God has a way of healing, not today, tomorrow, but someday when your heart is ready. Love to you in Christ. Sandy from MD

  3. Tammy,

    You’re coming to She Speaks???? Email me, girlfriend. I’ll be volunteering there this weekend. I’ll be in and out on Thurs and Friday, but will be there probably all day on Saturday. I definitely want to hook up with you while you’re there!

    Marybeth is my friend and she will treat you right. I’m sure your group will be so blessed by the words you share, especially if they are anything like your blog.

    Can’t wait to see you!

  4. Dear friend…I am catching up on your blog and I have been crying AND laughing…I pray that God will speak clearly and that you will continue to follow closely…I am amazed at your faith and your ability to write so I know He CAN use you…I have never heard you speak so I am not sure about that…hahaha! Anyhow, know that you are being prayed for! I alos got the notecards and I LOVE them! I already sent one to a sick friend in Northern Ky! I will use them as God leads…

    LOVE YOU!!!!