Thank you all for your sweet posts, texts, and emails lately.
I love you all so much.
I thought that maybe writing a blog post last week would “get me going again.”
But it didn’t…..yet.
It’s not that I have no thoughts, no stories, no memories to share.
It’s not that I don’t have time to stop what I’m doing and write.
It’s just that when I do sit down to write, there’s nothing.
A popular phrase I hear a lot lately is, “I got nothin.”
And that’s kind-of how I’ve been feeling.
It’s been a while since I’ve reached such a desert in my writing.
I’m not sure what it means.
Sometimes it scares me, because writing is such a part of who I am that the thought of being wordless for any length of time makes me feel like I am going to try to live without oxygen.
I love to write.
What I love to write about, though, is how God’s Word is speaking to me, changing me, transforming me into a better person………..
And sometimes I feel like my “better” isn’t that much “better” than it was yesterday or the day before or even a year ago.
I feel so extra weak sometimes.
And so I’m trying to listen more than I speak.
I’m trying to read more than I write.
I’m trying to soak up Him so that He can be squeezed out of me, because sometimes the sponge gets dry.
So PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE know that even on the days when I do not have a blog post, YOU ARE IN MY HEART and definitely on my mind.
Today, Martha is having her surgery in Houston. Four surgeons are at work as I type. Please whisper a prayer for her.
Today, I have a KCU student recovering from unexpected surgery at my house. Please whisper a prayer for him.
Today, I’m wondering how little Charlotte is doing and hoping that Sandy emails me soon with an update.
Today, I’m thinking of Jen in Australia and Hamza in Saudi Arabia and all of my grieving friends and wondering how you are doing.
Today, I’m going to spend time with an old friend I haven’t seen in over a month.
And today, I’m going to listen.
Listen to friends.
Listen to nature.
Listen for God.
Maybe when I begin to hear Him again more clearly, I will have something to say that means something.
Until then, I’m trusting my wordlessness to Him.
I’m giving Him my nothing and asking Him to make something.
And I’m praying you will give Him all of your nothing too.
See what He can do!
“He is enough!”