In just 41 minutes, it will be May 22.

May 22 is Nick’s birthday.

This means that 15 years ago tonight was my last night to not have Nicholas Yancy Nischan in my life…to never have another day of living without the knowledge of Nick.

Knowing the pain that our family has endured because of our grief and the pain that Nick endured in his fight with cancer can easily make a person wonder what you would do if you could go back in time and change anything about history?

Would I choose a life where I never got to meet Nick simply so that I could be spared sadness and he could be spared illness?

In some ways the logical answer seems to be “yes.”

But somehow God goes beyond human logic when He sets us out on this crazy journey called, “life,” knowing all the twists and turns and ups and downs we will face ALL ALONG THE WAY.

In spite of this Almighty view of life, God chooses to set us out into this world anyway and THANKFULLY gives us some promises to keep us on the right track.

He promises to go before us.

He promises to make the rough places smooth.

He promises to give us life and LIFE ABUNDANTLY!

He promises that He will turn our tears into laughter.

He promises to bring good from all situations for those who love Him.

He promises to never leave us.

He promises to never forsake us.

He promises that His love is never-ending.

He promises that His mercy is new every morning.

He promises that those who are absent from the body are present with the Lord.

He promises that He is preparing a place for us..a place with many rooms!!!

And the list goes on and on and on and on……..

So, tomorrow is Nick’s 15th birthday and he is not here to celebrate his special day.

It hurts.

But as Joyce Meyer would say, “I know that I know that I know that NICK IS GREAT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

So, if I could go back to this time in my life 15 years ago, what would I do?

I’d do the very same thing I did last time!

I would love every minute with my sweet Nick during his wonderful 13 years here on Earth and be thankful for a precious boy who made life better for so, so many…and still does every day!

That’s what I would do!

Happy Birthday to my sweet brown-eyed baby boy!

I love you so much!!!

Here’s a thumbs-up piece of cake from Olivia’s birthday party in January! 

We couldn’t believe it when this piece of cake was unknowingly set on a plate straight from the spatula!!!!!!!!!!                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           


olivias  birthday and quelf 131 HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NICHOLAS YANCY NISCHAN!


WE MISS YOU EVEN MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!