Tammy Nischan

In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at tammynischan@yahoo.com and I will reply as soon as I can!

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My House of Mixed-Up Seasons…………..

They weren’t hiding……. but they weren’t supposed to be on display either. Hints of Christmas…… Reminders of winter. They somehow missed the packing up of seasons long past. And my friends discovered them this weekend. How had I missed them? ————————————- Maybe I hadn’t really. Maybe I like seeing Joseph by my television and a... Read more

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I’d Rather Travel Alone

Paths – they’re always leading me. And their dusty trails, covered in leaves, may try but just can’t hide the truth, someone’s been this way before. So I walk, unsure of where I’m headed, but convinced I’m going in the right direction. On a good day, I have a plan. Point A to Point B.... Read more

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When Hope Holds Up Your Branches

I won’t deny it. There’s beauty in every winter snow…… even when it falls in spring. The calendar can’t control its arrival any more than we can. And with world-hushing power, it has a way of uniting all creation under its blanket. Snowflakes slowly pile high, creating magical scenes, but at the very same time,... Read more

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Learning How To Let Go And Still Be Mom

Diapers. Long nights with little sleep. Never-ending laundry. It’s hard to even remember all the things that used to be part of my motherhood story. _____________________ Like the voices of my children floating through the house, the memories of things that once completely wore me out are slowly fading away. ______________ I’m not sure if... Read more

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Because, Like Actions, Words Speak Too

‘ I’ll never forget the day I met Davi, one of Luke’s closest college friends. His smile was the first thing I noticed. His Brazilian accent was a close second. His sweet way of calling my daughter “First Lady” made me smile so big. I loved everything about this young man, and he showed up... Read more

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What I Want My Granddaughter To Know In A Broken World

Round and round, thoughts spin in my head. How does our world have the capacity to hold so much good…………… and yet have room for so much evil? Yesterday, evil pushed its way into our country…….once again and tried to take over. It forcefully took what was never meant for it to have and left... Read more

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Even Moses Needed More

Moses encountered God in a burning bush. He watched God perform miracle after miracle in Egypt. He saw the Red Sea parted and witnessed manna falling from Heaven. He climbed Mt. Sinai and chiseled God’s laws into stone as God spoke to him. But it wasn’t enough. He needed more. He needed to know what... Read more

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When You Question the Wilderness Road

When Pharaoh let the people go, God did not lead them on the road through the Philistine country, though that was shorter. For God said, “If they face war, they might change their minds and return to Egypt.”   So God led the people around by the desert road toward the Red Sea. The Israelites... Read more

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The Only Question That Really Matters

It’s strange how life goes. You grow up thinking you want to be this or do that. You imagine all the places you might live. You dream of having a family. And then you commit yourself to God’s leading……………….. you throw away your own ideas of what an adventurous life might look like in exchange... Read more

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When God Shows Up In A Silverware Drawer

I’m not sure why, but there was something about this particular moment –  Tim putting away dishes while I placed knives, forks, and spoons in their proper place.  Maybe it was the sound of our small talk mixed with the clinking of metal and glass that grabbed my attention. Or maybe it was the silence... Read more