Today did start pretty “black”………..the sky anyway……
But Mom, Evan, Maria, Todd, and I felt anything but darkness.
We had awoken at 3:30 a.m. and almost immediately heard the sound of mom’s wind chimes ringing loudly on her back porch. This always makes me and mom smile….realizing Nick’s presence is never as far from us as it so often feels.
By 4:30 a.m., we were headed for E’town…..not especially looking for “one thing” but definitely looking for a fun memory. The boys and Maria had never experienced this once-a-year phenomena and were very curious about how it really was in shopping centers in the middle of the night when prices were slashed, items were limited, and people were on a mission of madness.
Why we chose Target first, I didn’t think I’d ever understand…….
The parking lot was totally full. One car actually released a passenger at a stoplight so that they could run across the parking lot and get into the store more quickly! At that point, we knew we were in trouble!
Little did we know that we would run into friends from long ago all through the store!
And then after standing in line for over an hour and visiting with the very friendly lady right in front of us, mom somehow mentioned Nick to her while I was talking to a cashier and who would have ever known that this new sweet friend of mine had also lost a child…a precious little boy who lived only 6 hours. Instantly, we shared a part of life that no one can ever take away.
I knew INSTANTLY why we had chosen Target first!
When God “aims” to bring people together, HE SHOOTS STRAIGHT at whatever “target” is necessary.
I hope this new precious friend stops by this blog, because in the craziness of the early morning hours, I got her picture but not her name!!!!
Anyway, I write all of this to say this:
ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS BE OPEN TO GOD’S PLAN EVEN IF IT DOESN’T MAKE SENSE AT THE TIME!
HE HAS WORK TO DO, and HE GETS IT DONE…..
IN SPITE OF OUR BLACK FRIDAYS!
The only black Friday in God’s eyes happened over 2000 years ago and became THE MOST GLORIOUS SUNDAY in His eyes in just three short days!
No matter what we may call today……God simply calls it “another day to draw people closer to Him!”
And Nick, you are forever changing me (and Mamaw) into the people God longs for us to be! Thank you, my brown-eyed baby boy! Oh, how I miss your grin, your voice, your conversations, your sense of humor, your laugh, your love for life! I am who I am today because of you.
Clinging to the promise of eternity in Heaven with my babies and My King,
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
A friend of Renee died yesterday evening. They will be rejoicing together in the presence of our precious Savior and King.
Continuing to pray for you.
Martha
Oh, my gracious….where do I even begin to tell you how blessed I feel to have met you and your mother yesterday (Friday). I stand in sheer amazement of God’s work each and every day. As soon as I left the store Friday morning, I immediately pulled out my cell phone to call my husband to explain to him what I had just experienced! Needless to say, I felt moved enough to call my mom, my best friend, and wanted to call a few more people, but, was afraid of waking them since it was still VERY early! I sat in my car for a few minutes trying to regain my composure so I could drive because I knew I might be a danger on the roadways with tears streaming down my cheeks. They were not tears of sadness…only tears of love. Some people may call our meeting “lucky” or “coincidental”, but, I prefer to call it God’s Divine Plan. He is all-knowing of our hearts, and He knows when to place special people in our lives. Yesterday, He chose to put you in mine, and I’m so very glad He did. I know that Sunday is going to be a tough day for you, but, I want you to know that I will be remembering you and your family and lifting you all up in prayer. Tammy, thank you for your heart, your ministry, your love, your perseverance, and, most of all your love for Christ our Saviour. I am so blessed and excited to have a new Sister in Christ! With much love,
Beverley Day (your Target friend)
Hugging you at this very moment. Love, Cheri
COOL!!! I am so thankful for you and your heart Tammy…and I am SUPER excited to see that your Target friend DID stop by your blog and praising God for His provision in our lives!
MISS YOU! LOVE YOU!