If you know me in “real life” or if you follow my blog/Nick’s website, you know that I have had a VERY ROUGH week!
One thing after another has caused me to feel fear, doubt, negativity, blah, blah, blah.
We came home from a literal “dream” vacation and were smacked in the face with the reality that life at our house is anything but a dream. Honestly, many times I would probably call life at our house a “nightmare.”
However, in spite of the worry I have about Nick, the frustration I have with teenage children, the drama of having a girl with friendship issues, and trying to stay happily married when my husband and I are both about to crack from the pressures of life, I am still thankful!
That’s right! I am thankful! Thankful for a God who promises to never leave me or forsake me. Everything else seems so insignificant when I hold it up to the truth that God loves me……no matter what life may be like in my somewhat foggy dreamworld!
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Hey Tammy,
Please know I have not ceased to pray for Nick, you and your entire family…
No, I know it must be a daily battle.
Praise God we can rest in the fact the battle is truly HIS not ours!
Praying for the Lord to give you strength for your journey, peace that passes all understanding and joy unspeakable in the midst of the storms.
Keep holding on to Jesus♥
Thanks for posting this message. This is the 3rd time that I’ve heard it this week – confirmation. We must all learn to be content in whatsoever state we are in.
Hi Tammy.. Whew can I relate!! Even though my two older ones are on their own there still is drama with their personal lives from time to time. Sometimes I feel like I need a time out lol, As with my Mariah the 10 yr old there is the friends and drama as well, but like you said it doesn’t make our Thanksfulness cease,
Blessings Lorie