Yesterday, during Beth Moore’s Breaking Free Bible study video,
she talked about fiery trials we face in life and how God can use them to burn away things inside of us that are impure or ugly.
She then shared a little about her husband Keith’s childhood, and the pain his parents have endured as a result of losing two children.
One day, while talking with her husband about the tragedies, she said he asked,
“I wonder what I would be like today if none of that would have happened?”
Her reply sent chills through my entire body.
She told him,
“You are such a better person healed than you ever would have been well.”
I thought of my own life journey and even the journey of my kids and husband.
While everything about our lives is not perfect, by any means, I do believe we’re finally on a road toward healing.
Not forgetting.
Not moving on.
Not letting go.
But allowing God to be the glue that holds us together……………….
individually and as a family.
We never did have a photograph taken of me, Tim, and the boys with Adrienne in her six short weeks with us,
and I’ve regretted that for 23 years;
but it’s still so hard to look at a family photo without Nick in it.
I think that’s why I’m so passionate about capturing memories with my camera.
I cherish every photo……………so much.
Over Christmas break, all of our kids were home together for the first time in two years.
It was amazing to have the house so full of love.
Olivia had the idea of creating family t-shirts and having a game tournament over the weekend.
On New Year’s Eve, we got really wild and walked to Speedway late at night for snacks and drinks!
The weather was so unseasonably warm we were even able to get in eighteen holes of Frisbee golf one afternoon!
And bowling definitely made the list of games for our family competition!

Looking back on this week of family time, I would be lying if I said every minute was perfect.
When you bring that many personalities together for an extended period of time, there are moments when a little space is probably the best option in order to survive.
But I wouldn’t trade one minute of the week for a week without all of our kids here!
It was the good, the bad, the happy, and sad that made the week so memorable.
And life is no different, really.
It takes the good days, the bad days, the happy and the sad days, to create a memorable life.
I don’t think any of us would want to see ourselves today had we not faced some pretty big hurdles and managed to get over them.
I know I wouldn’t want to know a “well Tammy” today over a “broken-but-held-together” one.
Life is definitely hard.
And aren’t we all in need of a little glue?
I’ll never forget Louie Giglio’s sermon on laminin, the protein that holds our cells together.
Just look at it!
Do you see what Louie saw?
Our whole body is filled with tiny crosses literally holding us together!

Colossians 1:17 says,
He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.
Jesus is our glue.
Physically
Emotionally
Spiritually
Our family, like Beth Moore’s and probably all of yours, has been broken………….more than once.
I’m thankful today and every day for Jesus.
I’m thankful my family and my soul are held together by something powerful enough to make us better than we were before the brokenness.
Are you in need of glue?

Put your Elmer’s and glue gun aside.
Try Jesus.








In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
