
I’ve never met this family but I feel like I have.
Ever since I read the first article about Maddie Bell’s disappearance,
I’ve found myself checking online news for updates at least once every few hours.
Hoping
and praying……
she’s been found.
But every time I read an updated story,
my heart aches a little more deeply.
When our daughter died of Sudden Infant Death Syndrome in 1992,
I remember saying multiple times to family and friends,
“At least I know where she is.”
My heart was broken,
but I found comfort knowing my baby was safely in the arms of Jesus
Picturing her cradled there made my pain a little easier to bear.
Adrienne’s crib was empty.
But I knew God’s arms were full.
But Maddie’s mom……………..
I can barely breathe when I think about what she’s feeling.
I can only imagine what it’s like when the sun goes down
and her daughter still isn’t home.
I’m so thankful for verses like Psalm 34:18,
“The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
Deep inside, I know Maddie’s mom isn’t alone.
And I know Maddie isn’t either.
But I still feel helpless.
I want the police to stop all traffic and search every car…..
in every town in every state.
I want the whole world to freeze until she’s back in her mom’s arms.
COVID-19 may have affected our economy temporarily,
but the disappearance of a beautiful teenage girl has affected another family’s life forever.
How do you put one foot in front of the other when you don’t even know which way to turn next?
My fingers feel weak just typing those words.
My mind spins out of control thinking of the questions that are surely racing through Maddie’s mom’s mind.
So what can I do when I don’t know what else to do?
First, I can pray for Maddie and her family and everyone searching for her.
Second, I can watch closely for a white car with a California license plate every time I’m out.
Third, I can memorize Maddie’s face so it’s locked in my mind just in case.
And finally, I can share Maddie’s story here and ask you to do the very same kind of things.
Wherever you happen to be.
Together let’s do what we can to help find Maddie Bell.
“Truly I tell you,
whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine,
you did for me.”
Matt. 25:40
Praying as I head to bed.
And thanking God for promising to never slumber or sleep.


In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
