I have 11 people sleeping in my house, and my day tomorrow is packed from sunrise to sunset….and I CAN’T SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
As I tossed and turned tonight, I remembered what I was drinking this evening and suddenly realized I had made a huge mistake! I have been making such an effort to stay away from pop and drink more water, but tonight at WalMart I slipped and bought a Diet Coke! What was I thinking?!?!! Here I sit in bed at 3:00 a.m. with my eyes wide open and my heart racing!
When am I going to learn?
I am sure this is a question God asks about me on a daily basis in so many aspects of life. When I’m short with my kids or my husband, when I stress over unmade beds or piles of laundry, when I make an excuse to start my day without my quiet time with Him……..and the list goes on and on.
When am I going to learn?
Thankfully, God is a God of second chances and His mercy is new every morning. I am so thankful to be covered in His grace.
As I sit here tonight reflecting on the fact that caffeine has kept me from sleeping, I have to admit that if I would have been asleep I would have missed these thoughts from God.
Thank you, God, for speaking to me even in the midst of my frustrating tossing and turning. Thank you, God, for reminding me that just as I mess up and determine to do better tomorrow, You see my flaws and shortcomings and love me anyway.
A Grateful Insomniac!
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Tammy,
As I read your story, it brought back a memory. You spoke of caffeine keeping you awake….well, my husband and I were driving to Mississippi. It was a 15 hour drive. He wanted me to help him stay awake. So, we stopped in Alabama and I bought a Super Super Size Coffee. It was huge! And, well, I was asleep in the next 10 minutes! To this day, I still can’t stay awake with caffeine!
I’m glad God kept you awake though. Otherwise you wouldn’t have had this great post!
Blessings,
Melissa Taylor
I just wanted to let you know that I enjoy reading your blog. 🙂 You are a blessing.
That’s fun that you’re blogging now! I hadn’t noticed your site but of course I’ll be checking back often. 🙂 I have tried to cut caffeine out of the diet too and man, if I have it at all…even after like noon, I’m up till 3 or 4am! We love you and are praying for you still…always…daily. 🙂 David, Mary & Cara