Have you ever heaved a deep sigh?
Muttered the words,
“I just can’t handle one more thing.”
Realized that the straw that broke the camel’s back is slowly breaking yours.
Sometimes life’s laundry piles so high that the sorting of it all is a task requiring more concentration than your mind is able to give.
Whites here.
Colors there.
Towels here.
You speak the words as you sort, reminding yourself there’s a pattern here –
even in this mess.
Could it be that easy?
The sorting of life.
The organizing of chaos.
Speaking as I sort calms my soul.
Reminds me there’s a pattern here –
even in my chaos.
And as I speak, I know Someone listens.
Someone who understands what it feels like to be in over His head.
He spoke into chaos years ago, and with His voice created beauty and order.
Turned nothing into something.
Breathed life into creation.
Set our world in motion.
Then sadly watched as we messed it up again.
Created new chaos.
Made mountains out of molehills then cried out when we couldn’t move them.
Sort us out, Lord.
Clean us up.
Sort me out, Lord.
Clean me up.
“Be still,” He whispers.
“Listen.”
“I’m speaking into your high-piled laundry.”
“Whites here.”
“Colors there.”
“Towels here.”
I feel a calm come over me when I remember I’m not doing my laundry alone……..
or life.
Speak, Lord.
I’m in over my head and down on my knees.
I’m listening.
Please sort me out.


In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
