My old office is now a cozy little TV room.
Kathryn and Olivia snuggled up in it tonight to watch a movie.
There’s not a lot of space o do much else than watch a movie or play a game in this room, but I love having a little place right off the kitchen for Olivia and her friends.
Nick’s bedroom is now my office…….but it is still very much Nick’s room in every way possible except for the videogames and movies that have been replaced by my books and notebooks.
I am with Nick in an extra-special way when I am in this room.
The memories of his too short but “so-filled-with-special-memories life” surround me when I am here.
So many autographed footballs, helmets, and photographs came to Nick from people he loved but would never meet. 
I’ll never forget the night before Nick’s surgery which was on his 13th birthday.
About 20 people from our community came to the house and helped me paint and decorate this room so that Nick would be surprised when he came back home from Columbus. I stayed up until the wee hours of the morning working on the room and then slept a couple of hours before riding to Columbus with a friend to meet Tim, Nick, and my mom at the hospital. They had gone up the day before. 
Even Chuck Norris and Tony Shaloub (Monk) sent Nick autographed pictures. 
This flag was flown in Afghanistan in honor of Nick and then mailed to us.
The “key to the city ” in the picture above was given to Nick by our mayor.
I miss Nick so much, but I will forever be thankful for the privilege of being his mom.
As you enter this new year, be thankful for the privilege of sharing life with all of those you love.
Cherish every minute……..
even the tough ones.
Memories are forever, and they are a gift from God.
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Tammy,
Thanks so much for opening your heart and life with us! You are such a blessing, encouragement and inspiration!
And how special your “new” office is; such wonderful memories of Nick.
Happy New Year to you and your family. Keep on pressing on…
Love, Tammy A.
(Laurie’s sis!)from PA
How far you have come and how great our God is to help us heal in a way that we never think possible when going through heartache. To make that change was a wonderful gift to you and now you will be able to work amongst your angels things. My prayers continue to be with you on your healing journey. Sandy from MD
Tammy,
I am sure Nick absolutely loved his room you surprised him with.
Thank you for sharing, you have been such a blessing.
Much love,
natalie
Your new room looks great. I love how all of Nick’s things are in there too. How special. I cannot wait to work on Grant’s room. You inspire me. I love you and am always praying for you!
I love you, Tammy. With every word, you touch my very soul.
Thank you for posting these cherished memories with us.
Hope you are recovering from surgery….keeping you in my daily prayerful thoughts
patti
I remember the night that Nick’s room was painted. It was a zoo in your house!
I have turned Sasha’s bedroom into my craft room. Even though she no longer lived here it will always be her room. I feel close to her in there when I am crafting and I think sometimes it makes me more creative because of that.