If this is your car, I apologize. 🙂 I promise that it could easily be mine on many days. 🙂
When I saw these words etched on the back window of someone’s vehicle the other night in the midst of all the beautifully dressed homecoming dates, the car just seemed to stand out in a way that screamed, “NOTICE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
Isn’t that how we feel sometimes when we are feeling dirty, cheap, used up, pointless, ugly, worn out, or just plain yucky?”
Physically, I haven’t been feeling 100% lately which has caused me to exercise less. When I slip out of my routine of exercise and walking, I often end up finding more time to snack which eventually leads to how I feel right now…
And that’s just the physical part of feeling not so “spunky.”
Spiritual “yuckiness” can often feel much worse. My new teaching schedule has taken a big chunk out of my quiet time, so I’m still trying to get into a better routine with that part of my life.
Today, I had my students decorate a Coat of Arms that contained five different sections that told a little about them. (I started a new nine weeks today where I am transitioning from math to reading so I had some new students mixed in with the ones I had last nine weeks for math.)
As I looked through the student’s papers as they turned them in, my heart broke as I stopped on one student’s Coat of Arms that simply had the word “nothing” in every section.
Greatest memory:Â Nothing
Something I am great at:Â Nothing
What I look to do in my spare time:Â Nothing
Life motto:Â Nothing
Today, it was as if this student was a dirty car screaming, “Wash me.”
I drew a new Coat of Arms for him and slipped it onto his desk. I wrote about how great he is in math and how he is a leader and how his smile makes me smile.
I watched as he read the paper and then slipped it into his trapper keeper.
I’m praying for him tonight.
Praying that somehow he can feel renewed. Praying that he can feel valuable. Praying that he can see a glimmer of hope in his life.
Praying that somehow his spirit can be washed, removing all feelings of “nothingness” that he has in his heart.
And I’m thanking God for medicine that seems to be helping my joint pain and I’m asking God to bring back my desire to get out and exercise. I want to feel renewed again too.
But most of all, I am asking God to help me find more time in each day in which I can simply be still and sit in His Presence.
Notice me, Lord, and WASH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Praying you feel washed and renewed today too, remembering your worth comes from Him who holds you in the palm of His hand and loves you with an everlasting love!
Jeremiah 31:3
The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying:
      “I have loved you with an everlasting love;
      I have drawn you with loving-kindness.

In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 

How sweet and caring of you to point out to that young man that he is special. I am sure you showed Jesus to him. We are all special because God made us unique.
I will be praying for you for health and strength and that you are able to set your priorities in order to feel fulfilled in the Lord. He is with you just as much at this season as it is Him that is orchestrating your life. He knows exactly what you are going through. Just lean on HIm
Love
Jennifer
Praying for you and for that boy. There are just so many youth that feel like him. It makes me so sad. I pray for his parents that they might notice what their boy is going through and do something to help lift him up. Tammy- you are awesome. Here’s a great big hug for you. ((( )))
This is so good, Tammy! We need to fix your blog to include “followers” so I remember to stop by more often.