It’s been over a month now since I’ve driven a car. My December 22nd surgery has been followed by some setbacks and the recovery has turned into quite an ordeal.
Clean pajamas are the wardrobe choice for each new morning.
Purpose has become mangled with self-pity.
I read, I write, I think, and then I think and think and think some more.
What is God teaching me on this journey of pain?
I’m still asking, listening, trusting (most of the time).
Well, yesterday one of my college friends from Ohio and a friend from her church (remember the clowns who visited me this fall?) thought it would be fun for us to play a game of Yahtzee over Skype. How could I pass up a chance to do anything with these two girls???
(HERE’S A PICTURE FROM LAST FALL WHEN THEY CAME TO SURPRISE ME!)
I invited a friend from up the street and thought to myself, “I wonder if they will appear on the screen as clowns???” So, I ventured up to Olivia’s dress-up clothes and pulled out some items for me and Donna to wear.
Sure enough, Laurie popped up on the screen with a big, red clown nose. Christine, unfortunately received a call to sub. I guess Ohio schools are allowed to be in session when it snows (smile).
I held up a very scary clown mask in front of the screen to scare Laurie, but I knew she would have nightmares if I put that mask on to play Yahtzee. So, I chose to wear something a little more “happy!”
Now the truth is, I haven’t been quite so happy lately. I am just now venturing to sit up somewhat straight but have resigned myself to the fact that this will only happen with the assistance of an inflatable cushion. So, as you can see in the picture below, this is how I’m really feeling.
As soon as our game was over, Todd needed things ironed for his senior pictures, so I thought, “Why not iron as a princess?” even though I’m feeling about as far from royal as I can get…….well, except for some royal pain. (smile again)
Today, I hope you can find a reason to smile in spite of the pain in your life…….
I’m going to try again.
It felt good.
Love you all so much!
Phil. 4:4
Rejoice in the Lord always. Again, I say, ‘Rejoice!’
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
So happy my prayers for you were heard.
carol
Tammy, I enjoyed the Yahtzee game with you and Donna! Loved the costumes! What a hoot!!!
Oh, and don’t think of your donut as an inflatable cushion…when you’re wearing your princess costume, think of it as your throne! 🙂 Laurie
LOVE YOU!!! This DEFINITELY made me smile!!!