It’s one of those rainy mornings……….
Sunshine has been replaced by storm clouds.
Rain pours as thunder rumbles.
Darkness through every window makes this day feel somewhat cozy, as if God is saying, “Stay put, my child. No running. No errands. Nothing….but me.”
Isn’t that what storms do?
Stop us in our tracks. Make us change our plans. Impact all of our decisions.
In the blowing of the wind, I hear Nick’s wind chime ringing on the back porch……
Reminding me of our storm with him. His storm. That changed our lives forever.
Thankful for the sunshine after every rain. Realizing that everything is different when the storm clouds pass away…….branches are bent in various directions, leaves have been blown from trees….
Sometimes storms change the direction we are going.
Other times they take away things that are precious.
And yet other times they do both.
Are you in a storm?
I promise the sun will shine again…………even if things are very different on the other side of the storm.
Nick, your perfect storm, has changed me. Deeply. Profoundly. Eternally. You, my son, rest in God’s arms until I hold again. I love you.
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Reminds me of that song….
Sometimes He calms the storm – and sometimes He calms His child!
So glad you were finding calm today! 🙂
Tammy your words minister to me in a much more powerful way than my words could ever be to you. You just touch a spot in my heart every time I read your blog. You are one blessed woman showered in a way that ministers in such beautiful words. Your strength continues to amaze me when you have been through one of the worst storms a mother could ever go through and yet you have such a strong faith to keep going. How I wish I had that kind of faith and you were my friend so that I could sit, enjoy a cup of tea and share your love of the Lord. God bless you and there is no doubt in my mind that you will someday wrap your arms around Nick. You are wonderful and enjoy reading your blog daily. Sandy in MD