God knew that today was going to be hard for me…………….I am sure that is why He laid the words to “Praise The Lord” on my heart this morning in bed.
I needed the words to that song to carry me through.
Nick’s pediatrician wanted to talk to me today about Nick and about his pain, so I drove to Ashland (30 minutes away) all by myself (Tim was already gone to golf with our son Todd) to see her. I had several friends who offered to go, but I kept feeling the Spirit say, “Lean on me…not on others.”
Shew!
When the nurse put me in a room that I have sat in so many times with Nick and I waited for Nick’s doctor, I couldn’t hold back the tears. When she came in, she held me forever while I cried and cried and cried and cried. We had a good visit. OH, I love her so much.
Tonight you can feel the tension in our house. Everyone is so uptight. I feel like all of our kids are edgey, Tim and I are edgey, and nothing feels right.
“Find rest, O my soul, in God alone…………….” That is my prayer.
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Precious Tammy,
My thoughts, my supplications, and His Kingdom Shalom be upon you & your home, sweet Friend…this entire day.
May the glorious Presence of the LORD surround Nick with both highest favor and blessing.
Joyfully interceding…
Oh Tammy, I just read the past two posts! Praising the Lord in the midst of this does not come naturally but He is pleased you are “choosing” it. My heart aches along with you. That’s not much comfort, I know. But that’s what I have and I am praying.
Even though your words about praising God were about you. I want you know how much you’ve encouraged me through them today. I will choose to praise Him today as well.
Love you,
Sheryl
Oh Tammy…
I’m wrapping my prayers all around you and sending so much love your way…
Keep holding on my sweet friend♥
Oh, sweet Tammy. My heart breaks for you. What obedience and strength as you listened to the Father and make that trip on your own…or rather with Him alone.
Continue to praise Him and allow Him to be your strength in these times of pain and not understanding.
Love and Prayers,
Paula
Tammy,
My heart hurts for your family. Praising the Lord while you lean on Him is so uplifting to me! Please know I’m praying!
Cheryl