It finally happened!
“Good night, mom” was just said by my last child of the evening, and I now find myself all alone…………
in the quietness of our lamp-lit family room……..
soaking in absolutely nothing but the sound of silence.
No tv. No music. No talking.
Silence overtakes my soul, and in this moment of perfect peace, I think of Him.
And His Word.
Exodus 14:14 “The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Psalm 37:7 “Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him”
Psalm 46:10 “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
I realize how difficult it is to grasp and savor these fleeting moments with Him.
Cell phones. Doorbells. Errands. Doctor’s appointments. School events. Groceries. Meals. Even the Internet.
Everything competes for my attention.
Constant commotion and non-stop needs peck away at my energy until the last seed of strength lies alone in the bowl hoping it has survived the frenzied feeding.
What will I do with this last seed of strength tonight? Will I use it for just one more load of laundry or one more sink of dishes……..both necessary chores? Will I send a “Nick Update”-(I have so much to share)? Will I squeeze in a little time of leisure reading just for me? Or will I simply go to bed thankful for a very full and productive day?
No, I decide that “being still” means just that. No moving around. No emails. No mind-wandering novels. Not even settling in for a cozy night of dreams.
I need to sit and simply listen.
So I do.
And as I release my mind from the many different events of one not-so-simple day………..
*five hours on the road traveling to and from Nick’s doctor’s appointment
*an emotional but hopeful visit with Dr. Fouladi, Maureen, Heather, and a medical student (Kristen)
*stopped traffic on the AA Highway because of a car wreck that took someone’s life (pray for this family tonight who is hurting)
*a visit from the ECMS Friends of Rachel Club this evening to rake our yard, pull weeds, and simply offer a little help (thank you so much!)
*a long-distance friend stopping by to visit while in town
*Olivia’s stressful heart from homework
*Todd’s trips to choir rehearsal and then the soccer game and then home again
*Dinner dishes
*Our weekly “family-watching” of Survivor……………
I give Him every aspect of the day, and
I feel peace.
“Find rest, O my soul, in God alone. My hope comes from Him. He alones is my rock and my salvation. He is my fortress. I will not be shaken.” Ps. 52:5,6
And I know that in the quiet He hears me. And He cares. And He brings true rest.
With eyes closed, heartrate lowered, and breathing slowed, the hustle and bustle of today somehow slip into the recesses of my mind.
Thank you, God, for calling me to this moment.
It was worth every minute just to be still with You.
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
In the quietness of my morning (it’s not yet 5:30 here)… I hear the same. “Be still… soak in the quietness. Be still and just rest in My goodness. Be still and know that I am your God.”
He is so wonderful in how He gives us quiet moments to just… touch His presence and feel His love.
Love you so much Tammy!
Bonnelle
Isn’t He the most amazing Lover of Our Souls when we respond to His intimate invitation: Come to me.
While reading your blog just now, Jesus turned my face toward His, and when our eyes met, my heart melted. Thank you for giving me the cozy place where I could be in that moment.
that was beautiful
Ahhh…let me say before I forget… you got your comments changed to “precious comments”. I’m so glad that worked for you.
There is much joy in that time of just sitting and being still before the Father.
I’m so glad after a full and productive day you were able to be still and listen for Him.
Much love,
Paula
Wow – this is beautiful!!!! I am sooooooo glad you found me! Love this bloggy world!
I will be back soon and often!
God Bless!
Becky Jo
I just wanted to say……..I Love You….From an OLD Dear Friend…..
Hope you have a nice weekend. Charlotte
Wow, I love this. Loved how you went through your day and gave God every aspect. It is so hard for me to “be still”. Always feel like I should be doing or thinking. So glad God met you there. Still praying for your family.
With love-
Sheryl
Thankful you found peace and tranquility in your quiet moment. I pray with and for your family daily! Judy