Psalm 139:14-16
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
Thank you, Lord, for seeing my unformed body.
Thank you for seeing the unformed bodies of all mankind,
and for doing something very special while we were still being made.
Your Word says that while we were being “knit together,” You were busy ordaining all of our days – before even one of them came to be.
I believe this and I cling to this, because it gives me courage and hope.
When I lean on this passage just as the little girl above leans on a tall and towering tree, I feel your strength. I feel your protection knowing that nothing in this world can change Your Almighty Ways!
I can rest, Lord, knowing that NO MATTER WHAT I face or my family faces or my friends face, You are there. You’re not surprised, not rattled, not shaken, not confused.
I can hide in Your sheltering wings, because I have never been hidden from Your presence…ever.
Lord, there are so many things in this world that make us want to run and hide.
Thank you for being with us even in those hiding places.
And, Lord, for me right now as the one-year anniversary of temporarily saying “good bye” to Nick approaches, I find great comfort in knowing that you ordained every single one of Nick’s precious days.
You were not surprised when he had to leave us here.
It is almost as if I can hear you whispering to him when he was still deep within me, “You’ve got thirteen and a half years, Nick. Live them strong! Live them for Me!”
And Nick did!
Lord, help me to remember that my days also are numbered and ordained.
I want to live them all for You in a mighty way.
If it is eighty years or if it is just forty-four, help me, Lord, to live them strong and live them for You and You alone!
In Your Son’s Precious Name,
Amen
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Tammy,
I, too, long for that day when we can say good bye to the strain and heartache of this world and be wrapped in the perfect loving arms of our Perfect Love.
May you sense His arms around you as your day of rememberance draws near!
You are loved, sister!
Lynn
It is rather interesting for me to read the post. Thank you for it. I like such themes and anything that is connected to this matter. I definitely want to read a bit more on that blog soon.
Thank you, Tammy. You have such a beautiful gift of putting your thoughts and feelings to words, but I know that is just scratching the surface. Last night was ladies Christmas dinner at our church. A soloist sang a very beautiful rendition of the New Jerusalem song. There were a lot of tears flowing in the room and then she sang, “Just give me Jesus”!!! It reminded me of a soloist singing it at the church in NYC, one of our last Sundays there with Renee.
It was extremely interesting for me to read the blog. Thanx for it. I like such topics and everything that is connected to them. I would like to read a bit more soon.
“Behold, the eye of the Lord is upon them that fear him, upon them that hope in his mercy” (Psalm 33:18).
Yes, Tammy, this Lord sees your heart, and he feels your pain. He knows when you are awake and asleep, He is with you always.
I’m praying for you as this date approaches. A day filled with the presence and peace of God.
One day very soon we will all be together again. What a glorious reuion awaits you!
Love you♥