Shew!!
I started strong.
I want to stay strong!
I’m subbing at the school where Nick received his award last spring for getting a “distinguished” on his portfolio……..
Today is that same annual awards day.
I just can’t go in the gym. I don’t want to make a scene. So I’ve slipped back up to the science classroom where I was writing a letter for a teacher and I’m trying to keep my boundaries in “pleasant places” even though I’m a little tickled that my “pleasant place” today is in a room with a live bird!
Leave it to Nick to give me a reason to smile even in the midst of teary eyes.
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Praying for you and thinking about you lots today…I think God gave me today off for a reason!
LOVE YA!
Satan…get out of Tammy’s way!
Finishing strong, yes that is what we all want to do. I am in my 16th month living with without my son, Peyton. I have made it through all the “firsts” I miss him constantly, but it does get easier. Father God, I thank you for my sister in Christ that knows to run to You in the weak moments.
Thank you for sharing your story.
You aren’t trying to stay strong. You ARE staying strong. You were strong enough to admit that you weren’t ready for that awards ceremony just yet and you found a suitable alternative. Knowing your limitations is a part of strength. I’m proud of you!
Praying for you and YES…YOU ARE STRONG!!!!!!