A couple of months ago, Tim asked me if I would be willing to help him lead a four-to-six week marriage class at church on Wednesday evenings starting this Wednesday night?
Why did I say “yes?”
Anytime you step up to do something in hopes of bringing people closer to God, you can count on the devil to step up and cast all kinds of doubt on your ability to do much of anything.
Tonight I feel unqualified and quite incapable of sharing anything about marriage that would be inspirational.
If you’ve read my blog very often, you know that my marriage is an area that I normally leave “untouched,” but for tonight I felt it was VERY IMPORTANT to ask for prayers for our family and specifically, our marriage, over the next month and a half.
So far today, I’ve had my feelings hurt at Pizza Hut (probably too easily, but once they’re hurt does it really matter?), been irritated at Pizza Hut (which followed almost immediately my hurt feelings, and I’m sure was amplified due to my frail emotions), agreed to do the nursery tonight at church partly because it meant being away from “said husband,” and then probably over-reacted to “said husband’s” need to relay a lady’s comments when she was returning Beth Moore DVDs to the church office today.
For the record….
I can be defensive.
It is very hard for me to say “I’m sorry.”
I do tend to be a control freak.
I’m not perfect,
And sharing all of this on my blog may be so transparent that some of you are now disappointed in me as a person.
However, I do think that confession is good for the soul; and tonight I feel convicted.
My husband is a patient, loving, selfless human being;and today I have been quite the opposite.
Forgive me, Lord, for being stubborn and easily angered.
Forgive me, Tim, for causing you to feel like your every word is scrutinized.
Thankful that tomorrow is a new day with a new chance to be the person God has called me to be.
10 A wife of noble character who can find?
She is worth far more than rubies.
11 Her husband has full confidence in her
and lacks nothing of value.
12 She brings him good, not harm,
all the days of her life.
13 She selects wool and flax
and works with eager hands.
14 She is like the merchant ships,
bringing her food from afar.
15 She gets up while it is still dark;
she provides food for her family
and portions for her servant girls.
16 She considers a field and buys it;
out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
17 She sets about her work vigorously;
her arms are strong for her tasks.
18 She sees that her trading is profitable,
and her lamp does not go out at night.
19 In her hand she holds the distaff
and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
20 She opens her arms to the poor
and extends her hands to the needy.
21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household;
for all of them are clothed in scarlet.
22 She makes coverings for her bed;
she is clothed in fine linen and purple.
23 Her husband is respected at the city gate,
where he takes his seat among the elders of the land.
24 She makes linen garments and sells them,
and supplies the merchants with sashes.
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity;
she can laugh at the days to come.
26 She speaks with wisdom,
and faithful instruction is on her tongue.
27 She watches over the affairs of her household
and does not eat the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise and call her blessed;
her husband also, and he praises her:
29 “Many women do noble things,
but you surpass them all.”
30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
31 Give her the reward she has earned,
and let her works bring her praise at the city gate.
Longing to be THIS KIND OF WIFE but realizing that (even in grief) marriage can have some very “every-day difficult” moments and taking a risk that some of you can relate.
P.S. If you have a perfect marriage, feel free to type your comment into a comment box but then please delete it before clicking “Publish This Comment.” (Smiles) You know I’m kidding.
I love you all! And if you have a perfect marriage, I think you have every right to share your secrets with all of us!!
Just don’t make it sound too easy….(Smiles, again)
Seriously, though, I’m open to any comments even if they are just “HI,” or “I can relate.” 🙂 Have a great week, and I’ll write again soon. 🙂