November 30th, 2010
It caught Erich and Todd’s eye as we entered a restaurant at 3 a.m. on the night of Black Friday (which is a whole other story I’ll save for another day)…
It was this. A chance to be someone else (not really)….
It’s more about the fact that even with a mustache and new eyebrows and sideburns, it was obvious that this was still a little boy……
Don’t we hide behind things just as silly?
Smiles when we’re having a hard time.
Excuses when we don’t feel up to doing what we know we should do.
Our past so we don’t feel guilty when we don’t move on with God’s future for our lives.
So many things to hide behind, but thankfully, God is the true Master…
And he sees through our disguises. He knows what we’re hiding behind.
So, today, I felt challenged to ask myself, “What am I hiding behind?”
I want to live an authentic life.
I know you do too.
Have a great day being YOU!
November 29th, 2010
Although Saturday “felt” like the anniversary of Nick going Home because we said our goodbyes to Nick on the Saturday after Thanksgiving in 2008, today is officially Nick’s birthday in Heaven.
He longs to heal hearts here on earth.
November 28th, 2010
Saturday, before everyone went their separate ways, we took a few family pictures in hopes of sending out a Christmas card this year.
2007 was the last time I mustered up the energy to mail out Christmas greetings, so I thought it was time to reenter the holiday spirit of actually sharing our “love” with friends and family by sending cards.
We chose this special place in mom’s backyard, because the figurine in the front is Jesus with two small children. A friend of my mom’s gave it to her in memory of Nick and Adrienne.
It felt good to gather here.
Nick would have had so much fun building this pyramid.
He was with us. I just know he was!
I found a shiny 2008 penny on the floor right next to mom’s guest room bed when I was taking off the sheets…looking back, I realized that it was at almost exactly the same time that Nick went Home on the same Saturday in 2008.
I hope your Thanksgivings were full of special memories.
November 25th, 2010
It’s Thanksgiving morning and as I lay in bed and thought about the day, I knew I had two choices.
To be thankful for all that God has done……..
Or spend my day thinking of all the things that have changed and how I wish I could go back in time and make life different.
I could choose today to live in the moment and soak up the laughter and love around me….
Or I could dwell on the past and remember the pain of just two years ago when Nick was so weak and so filled with pain.
As I made my way to the kitchen to make a pot of coffee, I looked out the kitchen window and for the first time ever I saw these branches (the ones holding the hummingbird feeder I bought in memory of my friend Heidi’s daughter Jessica who loved hummingbirds and who had a hummingbird hover over her grave during the entire graveside service)……
I saw these branches asking the question,
I saw the “why?”
I stood and stared and thought to myself, “There are some questions that we will ask until eternity and the answer will continue to be, “I don’t know.”
Only God knows.
And then, as if the side branch had been invisible for a few minutes, I saw the bottom of the branch-made “y,” and my breath was taken away…..
Do you see what I see?
November 23rd, 2010
“For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror..”
I love how I Corinthians 13 contains the words above.
Oftentimes distorted and blurry…
Not able to view things from every angle…
Not the real me, the real you, the real life….
One day we will see what is real!
No more need for mirror viewing…
We will be viewing the face of our Savior.
And then what will happen?????
That same verse above ends with these powerful words!
“And then we shall see face to face. Now I know
in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am
As Thanksgiving approaches, I am thankful for the healthy perspective God’s Word gives us!
Have a wonderful Tuesday…..
Coming soon (Battlefield of the Mind’s next chapter, Multitude Monday Update, and some thoughts from the book Putting God back in the Holiday).
November 22nd, 2010
Old family pictures will always be some of my favorites…….
I’ll share the Christmas trees and Nativity sets as soon as we have them out and ready.
I’m baby-stepping my way into the holidays, trying to find joy in the things that always made Nick smile.
If you’re facing a difficult holiday season, I’ll be praying that you can make steady baby steps too.
I love the middle of this passage…….it reminds me that there is a “joy set before us when we endure….”
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.
For the joy set before him he
the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
November 21st, 2010
A shot (waa!!!), some antibiotics, and some rest are what the doctor ordered…….
But the best part of healing came for me through…… Watching Tim play chess with Phillip……… Watching Evan who turned 21 today blow out his candles with Phillip who will be 7 in just three weeks! Seeing Evan open his watch from Maria…..Watching Phillip play with his birthday present with Olivia…. Taking a picture of Phillip with Olivia………
Yes, my medicines are helping but I am thankful for healing that comes in the form of family and friends most of all!
November 19th, 2010
I’m at home today.
Heading to the doctor in about an hour.
I’ve been fighting a cough and head cold for three weeks now, and I finally decided that I probably need more than an occasional Tylenol.
As I was thinking of what to write today, I ran across these pictures from the morning before Erich’s reception and I was reminded of how God used tweezers in my washer to help me prepare for that particular day.
See, the Friday night before the reception I had looked everywhere for my tweezers with no luck.
On Saturday morning as I was switching some laundry from the washer to the dryer, I felt a poke on my hand and, lo and behold, there lay my tweezers…nestled quietly between the folds of two blankets.
I felt the need to take a picture (imagine that!), but at the same time, I didn’t really know why.
When I went to take the picture, I realized that my battery was almost totally dead in my camera and had I not taken this picture I wouldn’t have had my battery charged for Erich and Mallory’s reception.
I was thankful that very moment for tweezers in my washer, and I knew why I had wanted to take the picture!!!
So, today, as I sit here sniffling, coughing, and feeling rather “blah,” it seemed like a perfect time to say,
“Be thankful for things like tweezers in your washer! You never know how God might be using them to make some other part of your life a little better!”
…….always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.
(After the last two posts, you may never ask me to do a load of laundry for you, but it was a risk I had to take. 🙂 )
November 18th, 2010
Anytime you buy a new appliance, it comes with a nice, thick book of instructions……
I save those manuals, but honestly, I rarely use them.
This past week, however, one of the students from the college where my husband teaches was in a pinch and needed some help. He and his roommate both needed shirts ironed for an evening event, and Heath’s suit needed some extra help. It had been in his truck for a long time where it had become very wrinkled and dirty.
I knew my washer and dryer had a setting for dry cleaning, but I had never tried it before.
We searched everywhere for the manual.
We even googled my appliances thinking we could find the instructions.
So, we looked at the settings on my washer and found one that said “deep steam.”
“That has to be it!” I foolishly thought.
So, I popped Heath’s suit in, and as the famous saying goes,
Oh my. I wish you could have seen my face when I pulled this suit out of my washer.
I wish I could have seen my face.
I was all alone at the house, so I grabbed my phone trying to reach Heath. I was finally able to get a hold of him, and he handled the whole ordeal with such grace and good humor.
I’ll never forget the night I tried to use my washer without reading the manual.
If you think about it, God knew life was going to be extremely complicated and difficult, so He left us with a very special Manual (His Word) too.
If you are facing tough decisions, don’t try to make them on your own.
Find your Manual and read it.
Believe me, you will be very sorry if you don’t.
Humbled once again,
November 17th, 2010
When Nick’s cancer came back in 2006, we decided that having college kids over to the house was just more than we could handle. So, other than little visits from time to time, we stopped having discipleship groups and game nights.
Our five kid had loved these kinds of night for the 16 years before this, so it was a big change for our family but one we felt was necessary so that we could focus on the huge and difficult journey ahead of us.
Four years have passed since our lives were turned upside down by cancer, and truthfully, I’m not sure our lives will ever be totally “right side up” again while on this planet.
However, Tim and I decided to place ourselves in the faculty auction this year and offer a night of games and snacks to a group of college kids.
And I just wanted to share a few memories from last night with you. You will see as you scroll down that Olivia had so much fun! It was hard not having any of our boys here for the night…..time has changed so many things in our home. But, it was great to see Olivia laughing with college kids and getting very “serious” about the game of Bunko. She even dug out some Halloween gear to prepare for the competition.
I’m thankful this morning for the gift of laughter and since I forgot to do my Multitude Monday, please let me share a Thankful Tuesday by adding to last week’s Monday list through this blog post.
14. College kids who love Jesus
16. College kids that pop in just to see what’s going on and then stay for awhile to visit.
17. Halloween costumes that can be used anytime
22. God’s grace which allows us to do things we thought we could never do……
With God all things are possible…………..
Praying the impossible becomes possible for you today through God’s power,