It’s Thanksgiving morning and as I lay in bed and thought about the day, I knew I had two choices.
To be thankful for all that God has done……..
Or spend my day thinking of all the things that have changed and how I wish I could go back in time and make life different.
I could choose today to live in the moment and soak up the laughter and love around me….
Or I could dwell on the past and remember the pain of just two years ago when Nick was so weak and so filled with pain.
As I made my way to the kitchen to make a pot of coffee, I looked out the kitchen window and for the first time ever I saw these branches (the ones holding the hummingbird feeder I bought in memory of my friend Heidi’s daughter Jessica who loved hummingbirds and who had a hummingbird hover over her grave during the entire graveside service)……
I saw these branches asking the question,
I saw the “why?”
I stood and stared and thought to myself, “There are some questions that we will ask until eternity and the answer will continue to be, “I don’t know.”
Only God knows.
And then, as if the side branch had been invisible for a few minutes, I saw the bottom of the branch-made “y,” and my breath was taken away…..