This is a huge week in our town. We are kicking off our local branch of Basket of Hope (www.basketofhope.org).
Angela Brunette, the Executive Director, arrived in Grayson yesterday from St. Louis, and I was able to spend the entire evening with her. It was wonderful! I know that God will use this ministry to encourage many children and families in Eastern Kentucky throughout the years to come as they face the news that their child has been diagnosed with a life-threatening illness.
Today Angela and I, along with a friend of mine whose son just recently finished his journey with chemo, will be visiting several area hospitals to present this volunteer ministry program. Tonight we’re having our first basket-delivery and training session and tomorrow night the goal is for our community to assemble our first 100 baskets!!! Churches, a girl scout troop, and schools have collecting items for the last month, and our town is “pumped up” about making a difference to hurting families.
So why am I surprised that Tim and I are both “crushed in spirit” right now?
Why am I shocked that last night of all nights Olivia had to find a “summer picture” of herself for the school play and Tim and I walked through as she was going through all of the pictures from Nick’s Make A Wish trip to the Bahamas.
There was Nick’s precious face on the computer screen.
Smiling. Beaming. So happy at the ocean.
I found Tim later crying in the bathroom.
I found myself not being able to get to sleep.
And now, less than an hour before I leave for a full day of hospital visits and time with two precious moms whose children are thankfully cancer survivors, I am struggling with self-pity.
Why am I surprised?
The devil just can’t stand when someone is trying so desperately to turn something bad into good. He just can’t rest when God is up to something bigger than he thought possible.
So, as I read the Bible this morning, I was comforted with words like,
II Cor. 4:8-9
Absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us. Rom. 3:29 (The Message)
Brothers, we do not want you to be ignorant about those who fall asleep, or to grieve like the rest of men, who have no hope.
I Thess. 4:13
5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
Romans 5:5
Nick may not be with me physically, but I know he is with me in my heart……
And more than that I know that he is with Our Father….who somehow loves him even more than I do!!!
Lord, I trust you with my pain and my sadness. Fill me up with Your joy and peace as You have time and time again. I am resting in Your unfailing arms. Keep the devil far from my thoughts. Help me to take every thought I have captive and make it obedient to Your Son Jesus Christ. Father, without Him I do not know where I would be today………..In His’ Precious Name, Your Son who Suffered for All of Us, Amen
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Oh boy…Did I need that.
I am trying to prepare to move to Romania…I sold my house last fall so that I could pay off debt and be free to move. Since then, I have fabulous friends that have housed me. I was planning to move to Ohio in June and since then the couple asked me to be out by May 1st.
I am trying to find a place to stay either here or in Ohio and haven’t been able to find one. Yesterday was sooo hard and the first verse you quoted, 2 Cor. 4:8-9, was EXACTLY what I needed to hear.
It is weird how when you are in a hard place, you can physically feel this weight on you…being “pressed down.” It is fabulous to be reminded that I will not be crushed, in despair, abandoned, or destroyed! Thank you so much for the encouragement and I will pray for you! I may try to come down for the basket pack tomorrow evening. I would love to see and be a small part of something so big in the Kingdom!
On the other hand, if I don’t make it, it is because I may go to Ohio tomorrow to look for apartments…
Love you girl!
Amber
Tammy, my heart goes out to you. I pray that today as you go about doing a good work to help others who are hurting that your spirits will be lifted too.
Thankfully, you can recognize this for what it is- an attack. But you will make it through and you will accomplish the mission God has given you today.
Tammy,
I Love You!!! I hope everything went well today and definately tomorrow. You are ALWAYS on my mind!!!! xoxo
Tammy, I am praying for you this week that Satan will get behind you.
I hope this week is better than you could have imagined!