This morning I read about Jacob wrestling with God.
His struggle for a blessing ended with a new name (Israel) and a permanent limp.
Life changed forever, spiritually and physically, when Jacob came face to face with God.
And if we’re willing and ready, we too can have that kind of transformation.
After all our questions, doubts, fears and uncertainties are washed away in the tossing and turning of a night with God,
we can wake up changed forever.
But here’s the catch.
We have to be ready for the struggle.
We have to be ready to keep wrestling until God lets us go with a blessing.
And most of all, we have to be ready for the limp.that may follow.
The brokenness of the new us.
The never-the-same-kind-of life.
Fully aware of just how much we need Him and yet fully aware of just how much He loves us.
Today, you may be in that very struggle for a blessing.
Or you may be on the other side of a great season of wrestling and realize with every wincing step of who you once were.
Life may very well be a repetition of seasons of questioning, seasons of wrestling, and seasons of limping.
It’s critical to remember that in every single season God is there.
He’s listening.
He’s participating.
He’s working.
He’s answering.
He’s transforming.
He’s making us new.
He’s leaving His mark.
But most of all, He’s longing to bless.
Don’t be afraid of the struggle.
Don’t be afraid of the limp.
Jacob Wrestles With God
Gen. 32:22-31
That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. So Jacob was left alone,and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”
Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.”
But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there.
So Jacob called the place Peniel, saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.”
The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel, and he was limping because of his hip.
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Thanks Tammy~such truth..I needed it!
I love you, Pam. I miss you so much. Hugs to you, my friend!