Well, it’s 11:36 p.m. and I’m packing (trying to anyway) for our first family reunion without Nick.


Sometimes that’s about all I can muster.

Nick loved trips.

He always got so excited about getting his video games ready, his jammies picked out, his pillow…..oh, his favorite pillow…it’s with him. I miss seeing it too. It was such a special part of him.

Well, tomorrow will be a 10-hour drive for a weekend with family from all over the United States. It’s a once-every-three-years event, so it’s always a fun weekend. I still want it to be fun.

I just have to keep praying for strength, for joy, for peace…….

I know that “I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.”

So, I turn around to face the suit cases again. And I try to stay focused.

Focused on Him Who carries me through every first,