
Many time when Olivia gets home from school, I find her carrots and her sandwich still in their sandwich bags. She has chosen to eat her fruit snacks, her chips, and her other goodies first and then either become full or ran out of time.
This morning as I was packing her lunch, I said it again, “Be sure to eat your sandwich first…”
Then as I closed the lunch box I couldn’t help but think of my habits. Not in a literal sense with food (although that’s an entirely different subject that probably would require an entirely different blog!) but in a spiritual sense with God.
It never fails. If I choose to clean the house first or run errands first or even exercise first, I often find myself “running out of time” for the most important part of my day….my time with God.
Time with God is like our carrots or our sandwich. It’s the part of life that matters, that strengthens, that makes a difference, that keeps us sustained.
Reading a secular magazine or book, cleaning the house, running errands, watching something on TV….
These are the fruit snacks of life.
For the most part, they really don’t do anything for us that is going to make a difference in an eternal sense.
Mom and I like to say that life is really just a time of “staying busy” until we go Home!! And I believe God calls us to a life of His-kind-of busy….Kingdom busy!!!!
This morning as I was reading about Gideon I learned something that I never had realized before. After God had weeded down his army to just 300 men (God didn’t want the Israelites bragging on their own strength), He told Gideon to “Get up and go down into the camp for He had given Gideon the victory over them.”
But then God says, “But if you are afraid to attack, go down to the camp with your servant Purah. Listen to what the Midianites are saying, and you will be greatly encouraged. They you will be eager to attack.”
Here comes the part I love!!!
The next verse doesn’t say that Gideoan attacked the Midianites. It says,
“So Gideon took Purah and went down to the edge of the enemy camp”
Gideon was afraid!!! He wouldn’t have gone down to listen if he wasn’t!!!!!
WOW!!!
After hearing straight from God.
After watching God work in mighty ways in the past.
After hearing God say, “I have given you the victory over them.”
Gideon was still afraid.
I don’t know about you, but that makes me feel so normal! So accepted by God!
And it also reminds me that God wants to send that extra confirmation when we need it…..even when we feel that so much has already been confirmed!!!
Thank you, Lord, for using men like Gideon who trusted You and yet were still afraid.
Thank you for promising to give us just what we need so that we can put our trust in You…..confidently!!!
I’m listening, Lord. Speak to me. Show me Your will for my life. Many times I feel afraid.
Fearfully Trusting Him and Thankful I ate My Sandwich First….I needed it!!!


In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 

Once again your insight is wonderful and just what I need to hear. Thank you for having your spiritual eyes attuned to the spiritual realm all around us. Your illustrations/parallels of the everyday to the Word of God need to be put in a book of devotions. I pray that my eyes may be open to what the Lord has for me each day.
Thank you for sharing the every day with us.
wonderful! i’ve always loved the story of gideon and how God called him “mighty warrior”. thanks for the insight that although he was a warrior, he was still afraid.
it does make me feel “normal”.
Isn’t it wonderful to “feel normal” and accepted by God..all at the same time?!? Thanks for reminding me that I serve/follow the same God that Gideon did!!
Hugs…have a great Tuesday!