I pass Nick and Adrienne’s graves every time I come and go from our house. I almost always look towards them for just a second. It’s just my “mommy heart” making sure all is well there.
No messed-up flowers, no leaning lanterns.
This morning as I was returning to the house, I looked over at their graves just as KLove was playing, “Hope Now.”
It struck me that truly everything does ride on hope now….
That’s how I breathe.
That’s how I smile.
That’s how I go to the grocery store.
That’s how I paint a bathroom or rearrange a living room.
That’s how I sit through a basketball game.
That’s how I attend a conference.
That’s how I speak to a group of women who probably have a better grip on life than I do many, many times.
I do all these things while riding on hope.
Hope that the God of the Universe is carrying me.
Hope that there is more to life than this life.
Hope that yesterday’s tears will be tomorrow’s laughter.
Hope that in the end…….
I won’t need hope.
I’ll have Him.
Until then, I am riding on hope now…….
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
LOVE that song. Although our roads are very different I have often said that I would not survive without “the hope”.
I like how you captured all the different things you do because of that hope. Some very ordinary things…it is all about hope. Thanks for the reminder.
Love to you!!
Thanks, Tammy! That was so well said and such a beautiful song.
We have a plague that says, “HOPE is the ability to hear tomorrow’s music, FAITH is the courage to dance to it today.”
Martha
Oh what a great song…
What a GREAT GOD we serve!!
I’ve missed stopping by. I’ve missed your awesome gift.
Thanks for sharing your journey with us Tammy.
Your life is so filled with HOPE, and it blesses mine so much~
wow…. thank you!
p.s… I love the new picture and the words you’ve written under it. I sat and looked at your picture and so wanted to wrap my arms around you. “At some point,” I told the Lord, “I would really like to go and have coffee with my friend Tammy.” I believe… He will honor that request.
I love you dear sweet Tammy!