I have a burden today for several families who are grieving deeply.
In many ways, I grieve all over again when I grieve with them. And I felt this urge to revisit my blog and share something before leaving this weekend in case any of these grieving families came here.
I never wanted to reach a point with losing Nick where I could be “okay” with him being anywhere but safely in my arms..
I remember when he was very sick feeling so scared that one day I would reach that point AND I remember vividly looking at his sweet face and thinking, “Lord, I will never be okay with you taking him from me.”
Almost 15 months have passed since the day we watched Nick slip from this life into the next.
I can hardly believe I am typing those words.
And I just want all who are grieving to know this:
I will never be okay with having to temporarily say “bye” to Nick but as each day passes I do believe that God gives me a determination to take one more step nearer to Him and nearer to Nick when I lean on Him for my everything.
I never want to say to someone, “Time heals.”
Time may soften the pain, but I don’t ever want to be totally healed. And if you have not lost someone very, very near to you that may not make sense. But trust me-Healing is something that I believe only Heaven will bring when loss is so deep.
But I do want to say this:
Keep getting up.
Keep pressing on.
Keep washing your face and eating breakfast and all of those other things that may seem pointless right now.
Keep sharing your loved ones’ life with everyone around you.
I love you all so much,