Just as the second torrential downpour ended in the late afternoon of our all-day Christian music festival, I noticed my friend Cindy and several others looking up at the sky. I went to them and was just amazed to learn that during the entire storm this one penetrating area of light had stayed bright and shiny. Cindy said she had been watching it for half an hour and it had never gone away. We had to pose pointing at it!! It was so special for me to think that maybe Nick had been allowed to continue to “peek” through the clouds and enjoy Nickapalooza even through the storm!
I couldn’t stop looking at the sky and smiling! It just made my heart sing to think that in some way God was sending yet another promise of His love and faithfulness even in the storms of life!!! Thank you, Jennifer and Aaron, for sharing the moment too!
I wanted to stand there forever and gaze at the beauty!
I felt so close to God almost as if I could hear the angels singing,
“Glory, glory, to the Lord Almighty!”
It finally got the best of me and I had to have a little cry. Thank you, Cindy, for crying with me. She even said, “I miss Nick too.” There’s something powerful in those words. Kaleb, I know you were missing Nick too..right along with me and Cindy and Aaron and Jennifer and everyone else who was standing nearby at that special moment.
Knowing that I don’t grieve alone means so much to me.
Later I had to snap a photo of the brochure for Nick’s foundation…my sweet Nick smiling through the rain..He always did keep that smile and it brings me peace to know that he always will!
He loved thunderstorms so much…I think I know why!!! God often spoke through thunder! I can’t help but think that Nick knew that more deeply than we could ever imagine!
As the clouds started separating, I sure felt like I could see a heart below the circle of sunshine!! Thank you, Lord, for once again speaking through your clouds!
You must know how much I need Your daily encouragement in order to keep pressing on.
A mom who continues to grieve but not without Hope,
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
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