Psalm 126:5-6 was part of my daily Bible study a week ago, and I had never heard these verses and felt so connected to them before in my life: Here is what they say:
Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. He who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.
I honestly feel that these verses sum up our family’s life journey and the awesome power of God to bring joy to replace weeping.
Nick, the son furthest to the right, is battling cancer and has been since he was seven. Today he had an MRI, and we found out the devastating news that he has a 6th tumor. This makes his fifth brain tumor (one was on his spine). Nick will have surgery next Wednesday, May 21st. He will turn 13 on the 22nd and spend his birthday in a hospital bed. This is bothering him more than anything.
I know that God promises to never give us more than we can handle, so I know He will give Nick every bit of courage and strength he needs to make it through the next week and the next surgery.
I feel that the Psalm mentioned above promises that we will reap songs of joy if we continue to “carry the seed” as we weep. So, I will forever share God’s Word with all who will listen as I journey through this nightmare with my baby boy.
If you are facing times of tears in your life, my prayer is that you will find comfort in His promises. He truly does give a “peace that passes understanding.” Have a wonderful day and thank you for your prayers for Nick. God bless you all!
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
Tammy,
I saw that you posted at 1:43 am. I didn’t even know you had a blog. I woke up from a thunderstorm at 1:43 am (true, it was NM time, not KY). You’ve been on our hearts and minds since we read your email yesterday. Garret is home for a few weeks and was nearly in tears when I told him the news… we all were! We’re weeping with you and lifting you up daily in our prayers. I’m leaving next week for Ecuador. My team of 36 teens and adults will be praying for Nick’s recovery every day while we’re gone. Many of the kids already know Nick’s story from being in my Spanish or Com Skills classes. One of the other teachers on the trip is Mark Scales, who grew up with Beth Stepp. We’ll all be praying! I love you, dear, dear friend! Karen
Tammy, Mom sent me your email yesterday. I am praying feverishly for Nick and for you and the entire family. Love you all, Jessica (Sheroan) Frye
PS I love the picture!
Tammy,
I want you to know, even though you don’t know me, that my heart and prayers go out to you. I can’t imagine. Don’t want to imagine.
Please know from the bottom of my heart… I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOUR FAMILY!!
Hi Tammy, I just saw your comment on Van’s blog…Please know that I will be praying for Nick and your family…healing for Nick and for the surgery to go well and for Nick to have a wonderful birthday despite being in the hospital…praying for Jesus to touch and heal him…
Hugs,
Kelly
I will be praying for your son– please keep me posted as to his progress. Thanks for letting me know– you should also post a request to the Proverbs 31 prayer team if you haven’t already. You can go to http://www.proverbs31.org to do so. Blessings and peace to you this day–