PSALM 123:1
I lift up my eyes to you, to
you whose throne is in
heaven.
I pray every day even though my prayers are usually brief. I find myself lifting my eyes to Heaven often…..
because I can’t make it very long without reminding myself that “this world is not my home.”
But when I arrived at the JFL football field (The Field of Courage named in memory of Nick) on Saturday to receive a gracious gift for Nick’s foundation, my heart kind-of stopped when I saw this lawn chair. I had never in my life seen such a HUGE CHAIR!!![]()
As I thought about how impressive this chair was in the midst of all the “regular” chairs, I couldn’t help but think of how UNIMAGINABLY IMPRESSIVE God’s throne is going to be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Nick now lives in the presence of God’s throne, the place to which I lift my eyes daily. This time of year is so difficult for both Tim and me. Grief has resurfaced in a painfully vivid way over the past few weeks as we approach the two-year anniversary of saying goodbye to our sweet, sweet boy.
God used a HUGE LAWN CHAIR to remind me, though, that there is a THRONE in Heaven beyond my wildest dreams,and one day I will kneel in front of this amazing throne offering all my praise and worship to Him who gives me the strength to live.
If man can create a chair that surpasses all other chairs of its kind, can we even try to visualize what God has prepared for us in eternity?!?!
I don’t think so!
I lift my eyes to His throne with a whole new feeling of awe and wonder….
thanks to an over-sized lawn chair on an elementary school football field sideline.
Thank you, Lord, for speaking through everyday things and forgive for the many times I do not hear you speaking,


In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 

That is one huge chair – and I am so grateful to serve such an awesome God! Love how God brought you comfort from a sideline chair:)
as i read this i am audibly speaking out loud! i cannot help myself. when i read the words that nick is in the presence of God’s throne, it took my breath away. literally.
i cannot even imagine what you are feeling. i love you and i thank you for sharing your boy with me.
Oh, this is very good. I have thought of you knowing that 2 years was near.
Love you so much.