It’s Thanksgiving morning and as I lay in bed and thought about the day, I knew I had two choices.
To be thankful for all that God has done……..
Or spend my day thinking of all the things that have changed and how I wish I could go back in time and make life different.
I could choose today to live in the moment and soak up the laughter and love around me….
Or I could dwell on the past and remember the pain of just two years ago when Nick was so weak and so filled with pain.
As I made my way to the kitchen to make a pot of coffee, I looked out the kitchen window and for the first time ever I saw these branches (the ones holding the hummingbird feeder I bought in memory of my friend Heidi’s daughter Jessica who loved hummingbirds and who had a hummingbird hover over her grave during the entire graveside service)……
I saw these branches asking the question,
WHY?
I saw the “why?”
I stood and stared and thought to myself, “There are some questions that we will ask until eternity and the answer will continue to be, “I don’t know.”
Only God knows.
And then, as if the side branch had been invisible for a few minutes, I saw the bottom of the branch-made “y,” and my breath was taken away…..
Do you see what I see?
A cross!!
I had to put on the first shoes I could find, Todd’s size 11 tennis shoes, and grab my camera and head outside.
God was speaking, and I knew I had to listen.
I came back in and knew it was time to photograph my Nativity sets around the house.
And then, by no accident, I received Max Lucado’s email devotion today entitled of all things, “No Accident.”
It was all about the reality that from the very beginning God planned for Jesus to die.
Max wrote, this “Jesus was born crucified.”
His disciples asked, “why?” And surely Mary groaned in her grief and pleaded with God for an answer to the question, “Why?”
It’s no accident that I am behind in reading my chronological Bible, and I am in the parts where Paul talks about the power of the resurrection.
It’s no accident that I was asked to speak next Friday night in Lawrenceburg, KY, and I am working on a message based on the song, “Mary, Did You Know?”
My heart is wrapped up in the reality that God’s wisdom goes far beyond our human understanding, and ONE DAY WE WILL KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Until then, I choose to be thankful for today.
I choose to see the beauty and the pain of the Nativity through the eyes of a mom who was chosen to give birth to a son only to one day be forced to watch Him die.
Can you imagine the joy Mary felt when she realized that Jesus had conquered death???????
Oh, that’s what I cling to!
That joy!
Oh death where is your victory?
I’m thankful today for the hope of the resurrection, and pray that same thankfulness fills your heart as you trust in Him.
Happy Thanksgiving from my home to yours.
I won’t be able to post for a few days, but I want to leave you with a few photos from my home to yours…….
Images that show why I am thankful today.
Why am I thankful?
Because God loves us all this much………



In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 

Tammy, since you like Lucado’s writing, I wanted to let you know he has a free online daily Christmas devotional here: http://bit.ly/aHuGBz. I hope you had a very blessed Thanksgiving!
Tammy, I ALWAYS appreciate your thoughts and your heart. I’ve been praying for you even more lately because I know it’s a rough time of year. In fact, I prayed for you last night when I stopped at the gas station and found a penny in the parking lot. 🙂
Thank you, Jeff and Laurie.
I hope your Thanksgivings were full of special memories.
Love,
tammy