I’m not sure what I was expecting when I stopped by my old office.
My nameplate was down,
and
a new one held its place.
I laughed as a friend handed me the rectangular piece of metal holding my own name.
Tammy Nischan
It’s funny how a nameplate seems so insignificant when you’re holding it in your hand………….
Or when it’s sitting on your windowsill…………….
right next to a tomato.
Honestly, though, it seems so appropriate to see them side by side.
They’re both so temporary.
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Titles and Tomatoes
They both come and go.
Holding on to either will do me no good.
It’s the planting of what’s inside that brings new life.
The seeds within that hold the promise.
And isn’t that the way life is?
It’s not about clinging to what we know as much as it is about releasing everything so we can grow.
I watch my kids take challenging classes, move to new places, start new jobs, put houses on the market……………..
boldly, passionately……………..
not hanging on to what once was but reaching out for all that will be.
And then there’s me……………..
the second-guesser of all things, the doubter, the one needing affirmation…………….daily.
As I watch the sunrise with my son, I know he sees the new me,
and
I know he believes in me even when I don’t believe in myself.
It’s as if he’s saying in his own quiet way,
“Live your dream, mom.
It’s okay.”
My windowsill tells me too.
Titles and tomatoes.
They come and go.
Today I’m putting my tomato on a salad and my nameplate in a drawer.
I can do all things through Him who gives me strength.
Phil. 4:13


In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
