Tammy Nischan

In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at tammynischan@yahoo.com and I will reply as soon as I can!

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Because I Need a Gatekeeper Too

Two hundred and twelve Levites were chosen to guard the temple. As gatekeepers, they monitored who entered the temple and who left it, protecting it at night and opening it every morning. From the north, south, east, and west, the temple was secure. ____________________________ It’s Monday morning, the sun is already brightly shining outside my... Read more

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Why Genealogies Matter

Genealogies are tedious to read. I stumble over the letters of each name, trying to get them right phonetically, but eventually find myself moving more and more quickly through each new verse. Am I really taking time to read these lists, or am I merely skimming through them so I can make it to the... Read more

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How to Have Enough Strength for Today

I check the forecast. Should I wear long sleeves or short? Should I carry an umbrella or will it be okay to leave it hanging on the hook in my laundry room? Getting a peek at the weather helps me feel a little more confident as I prepare for the day. But some things about... Read more

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When God Seems Out of Reach

“Why am I still here?” she asked us as she cried. Life had taken a toll on her body, her soul, and her mind; and answers didn’t come easily as I looked into her tear-filled eyes. It’s one thing to say, “God loves you,” it’s another thing to prove  it. Her life had been a... Read more

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David Remembered What Saul Forgot

I wonder what would have happened if Saul, the first king of Israel, would have stepped out from behind his baggage and trusted in God as he led the people? Would he have spent more days in peace, instead of so many years in turmoil, focused on protecting his throne instead of being thankful for... Read more

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Sri Lanka, Bombings, and God

I woke up in the water, trying to make my way to safety. All I could remember was the feeling of my foot slipping as my hands reached out a little too late, unable to grasp anything that could keep me from going under. Wet rocks don’t make a firm foundation, and I had trusted... Read more

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Sometimes Life is Scary

I remember the day like yesterday. Nick was in the middle of his long journey through chemo, and I had come home to spend a couple of days with our other four children. Motherhood doesn’t stop when one child is sick, and I was feeling the weight of trying to be the kind of mom... Read more

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When Our Heart Is Set On Him

Yesterday David killed Goliath and led the Israelites in the defeat of the Philistines. Today he’s hiding in a cave, trying to outrun Saul, who would love nothing more than to see him dead. Along the way, David attracts a following of outcasts – men who the Bible says were “desperate, in debt, or discontent.”... Read more

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When Your Hands Feel Empty

When David ran to the battle line holding only a sling and a small bag of stones, he wasn’t any less equipped than the Israelites standing behind him. I Samuel 13:19-22 says, Now there was no blacksmith to be found throughout all the land of Israel, for the Philistines said, “Lest the Hebrews make themselves... Read more

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Move That Suitcase

“Behold, he has hidden himself among the baggage .”  I Samuel 10:22 I wonder what the Israelites thought as Samuel presented their long-awaited king and then discovered he was hiding. Saul had already been anointed king in a private ceremony. He knew what was coming as Samuel slowly narrowed down the tribes in order to... Read more