Dearest Prayer Warriors and Jericho Marchers,
Today was the first time in the surgery waiting room where after Dr. Kosnik came out to talk to us we all just sat numb and speechless.
Basically, they didn’t do the hip surgery today. The orthopedic surgeon here did not feel that he could place a pin in Nick’s hip and wants to talk to us about it later. (They didn’t even make an incision to try, so Nick won’t have any recovery in that area at this time.)
Dr. Kosnik removed us much of the cancer in Nick’s brain as he could, but he gave us the impression that there was quite a bit he could not get to. Because of this, he did not put in the chemo wafer. He said he didn’t want to make Nick any sicker than necessary. He also said that he left one bone of Nick’s skull loose to help with pressure from the tumor.
We are at a place in this journey that we have never been before. A place of fear and uncertainty incomparable to any we have ever felt.
Yet, with this reality we are also very aware that just as in every other situation along the way, GOD IS NOT SURPRISED AT OUR NEWS.
Somehow, He has already gone before us smoothing ways we don’t even yet know that we will walk.
He promises that His mercies are new every morning.
He promises to never leave us or forsake us.
He promises perfect peace to those who trust in Him.
So, as we wait to see Nick in recovery, we will hold our heads high knowing that we have a Great Physician who will lead us to a Rock that is Higher than any place this hospital can take us. He will lift us from the slimy pit, set our feet on a rock, and give us a firm place to stand. He will put a new song in our mouths, a hymn of praise to our Lord!
And as the Psalm continues, “Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord!”
We love you all.
We thank you for every prayer.
Keep marching!
Every night!
Remember to check around in Grayson for the final days marching time. It is either 2:30 in the afternoon or 8 at night. I’m not sure.
Oh, we love you all so much.
Turn to God for us. Not with complaints, but with praise for He has a beautiful plan! We are going to keep taking one more step and one more step so that we can walk from strength to strength!
Pray for Nick’s speedy recovery and for his spirit.
You are our messengers to the throne.
Please keep pleading on Nick’s behalf!
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at 
I am sorry that I am crying. Just have to be honest with you. And I have no words. You are loved and prayed for. “We are your messengers to the throne”. What a privilege we have. Wish I could give you a big hug, Tammy!
Love to you and praying on,
Sheryl
My Dear Friend,
I will not stop praying. I’m so sorry the news was not what you had hoped for.
It is great to hear you with a positive attitude still- Praising God instead of blaming him.
You are so right that God has a plan…a plan you cannot see. A plan written before a day of Nick’s life came to be. God knows what he is doing. God knows your pain. God is faithful to deliver us.
Always in my prayers, Cheri
Sweet Tammy. My heart has no words but I want you to know I’m here. I’ve read and visited. The prayers of many are being sent up to the Almighty of Almighties. He is your refuge and strength and we praise Him for that.
Keep believing. Keep your love and trust deep in Jesus.
Much love to you.
Paula
Sweet Tammy!
You are in my thoughts and prayers even as I’m on a journey of my own. Know that you are dearly loved and I will keep on praying and walking for you.
Love,
Bonnelle
Dear Tammy,
You don’t know me — I am a friend of Tammy Andrew, Laurie Muller’s sister — she led me to your website and please know we are praying for you. I read your blog every night before bed, in absolute awe of your incredible faith — you are a blessing and an encouragement to me every night. We will continue to pray.
It is a privilege to be praying for Nick and the rest of your family. My focus in my prayer tonight–peace that passes ALL understanding and a restful night sleep for Nick and for you and your husband. God bless you, Nick and loved ones.