Meet Tammy
In December of 2007 as our youngest son, Nick, was fighting brain cancer, I began to blog. Writing provided a way for me to release all of my questions, fears, and doubts. It also allowed me to share the ups and downs of Nick's journey with people who were praying for him all over the world. When Nick went Home in November of 2008, my blog became my way of searching for God in the midst of my deep heartache. My heart was broken and grief brought to the surface every emotion imaginable. Being able to release those emotions through my writing brought a sense of purpose to my pain. Having already walked the road of grief in 1992 when we lost our daughter to SIDS, I knew I needed a way to keep from falling into a pit of depression and despair. I had walked close to the edge of a bottomless pit when we lost our daughter,and I knew I couldn't let myself get that close to the edge again. This blog has been and continues to be my tiny corner of the world where I can share My Heart as I journey through God's Word.......thus the name........ My Heart His Words. Thank you for taking time to share life with me. If we do not meet while here on earth, I look forward to hearing all about your life when we reach our final destiny.........Heaven! Email me anytime at tammynischan@yahoo.com and I will reply as soon as I can!
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Grab My Button
Releasing my claws……
Believe it or not, God has been using Olivia's new kitten to speak to me this week while she has been away at church camp. Not in real words. Not even in "meows." But definitely in actions. See, I decided to keep Marble up on the hill in our clubhouse at night until...
A Two-Sided Attack
Grief has reared its ugly head this week and somehow become intertwined with family drama.I feel confident that this spiritual attack has its roots in the reality that Nickapalooza is closing in on us and the list of things to do keeps getting longer and longer even...
A Silent Prayer Request
I wish I could say more, but right now I just can't.I just have a silent prayer request that is a huge burden to me as a mom.I know that God will hear all of your prayers and mine and work things out in His time......just please pray, and I promise that I will share...
The Beauty of One….
As we watched fireworks this past weekend, I noticed something. Something that really made me think. When I was a little girl, I remember getting soooo excited about going to watch fireworks! I remember packing blankets and drinks and driving to a town near ours to...
Happy 22nd Birthday, Erich…all the way in Africa…we miss you!
Tim and I called Erich at midnight last night to wish him a happy birthday. We woke him up! It was only 6 a.m. in Kenya. He sounded good though! He's having a wonderful experience in the clinic there and has learned so much about medicine, illnesses, and the...
What timing!!!
Below is the subject line of an email I received tonight of all nights! "Tammy, Been injured but haven't received your settlement?" The email went on to say that my "injury could be worth $$." How did this spam email account know what had happened to me this evening?...
Hard to believe…
(This photograph is Nick with Steve in November just weeks before Nick went Home to be with the Lord.) As we were leaving to attend a Fourth of July cookout this evening, I received a text telling me that Steve McNair (Nick's favorite NFL player next to Mike...
A "Marbleous" Day….
We were so thankful that Marble did not run away during the night!!!! Or get chased off by Snoopy or Peppy! After these three "kitty hunters" tried desperately to find her in the dark last night, I wasn't sure she'd still be around this morning!!! Thankfully, after...
Just What Olivia Needed…(July 2009)
Last night was one of those nights when I questioned whether or not having a blog was "worth" what had happened. See, Olivia got on my blog and started scrolling back through pictures while I was vacuuming the house. I walked through at one point and saw that she was...
A New Kind of Pillar
Judges 16:26 Samson said to the servant who held his hand, "Put me where I can feel the pillars that support the temple, so that I may lean against them."As I looked at this picture of Olivia standing by my dad at one of her basketball games and as I read the verse...